Past Reflection…

"The reason you want every single thing you want is because you think you will feel really good when you get there. But if you don't feel really good on your way to there, you can't get there. You have to be satisfied with what-is while you are reaching for more." — Abraham-Hicks.

It has been a year since I found my way home and cured my depression; that I wasn't even aware of having.

My only symptom was constantly looking for the next thing to make me happy: the next meal, the next workout, the next kiss, the following sex, the next sleep, vacation or shopping spree, etc. I avoided being in the now at any cost despite having a "perfect life."

After my experience with sacred plant medicine (ayahuasca) in Peru, I realized that my life only felt perfect because of the fantastic outside things I was so fortunate to have. Since then, I have lost most of them but won much more.

Mainly, I started loving myself and found happiness inside my heart! It is a journey; I won't lie. It's not all rainbows and butterflies! I have my moments when my ego gets triggered; I start aiming for someone's company or other external things. However, life always shows me its magical side. I see the signs the universe sends me, learn the lessons I need to know and understand that all I need is unconditional love as my guide. The rest isn't up to me. So grateful for my life now and forever!